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"I love unmade beds. I love when people are drunk and when they’re crying ─ and cannot be anything but honest in that moment. I love the look in people’s eyes when they realize that they’re in love. I love the way people look when they first wake up, when they’ll be forgetting all their surroundings. I love the gasp that people take when their favourite character dies. I love when people close their eyes and drift to somewhere in the clouds. I fall in love with people and their honest moments ─ all the time. I fall in love with their breakdowns and their smeared makeup. Honesty is just too beautiful to ever put into words."

 

I’ll be straight, honestly you’re the best part of my day.

" Sometimes your heart needs more time to accept what your mind already knows. "

paynesgreymind:
I am so in love with your blog!! Anywho, I've recently been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, and I was wondering how do you cope when you're just diagnosed? In a way I feel so relieved we've figured out what the issue is, but at the same time I'm afraid I can't tell the difference between me and my Bipolar disorder, if that makes sense. I'm afraid my environment will trigger another episode.

Hey! Thanks, glad you like it. Truth is, I did not cope once I found out. I was in denial for nearly 3 years. I got diagnosed at age 14. I refused to believe I had this illness bestowed upon me out of nowhere, and I refused to take medication after I came out of the psych ward the first, second and third time. Consequently, by going off my meds I trigged more manic and psychotic episodes. However when I was off my meds from age 18-21, I did not relapse. When I was back on medication last year, I had a mild hypomanic relapse and spent three weeks in an adult psych ward. So I can’t say for sure how to cope. The coping strategies come in time. 10 years later and I know how to finally cope and manage my illness. One thing I can tell you for sure - stress is a huge trigger for an episode, whether it be depressive, psychotic or manic. So make sure your environment is stress free. Well, as stress free as you can possibly make it, because stress in life is inevitable.